Thursday, September 27, 2012

Just Kidding & Ramblings of Music

So, you know my last post, how I said I was coming back to the world of blogging & all of this amazeballs stuff was to come REALLY SOON? Well I gotcha, I was just kidding...I just didn't know it at the time. Ha Ha! I am so hilarious...hahaha...uncomfortable, pity laughter starts fading into background noise...hahaha... 

ANYCHOW, I am just going to ramble on for a bit, so here we go. I love music, like really love it. It's therapy for me. I find that sad songs seem to actually comfort me somehow when I'm sad, cause I feel that I am not alone in how I am feeling in that moment. When I am stressed, I know that I can count on my music to calm me down. When I can't sleep, music can help lull me back to sleep. When I am scared or lonely, music fills the silence. When I am happy, music makes me even that much happier. It makes cleaning my house, so much more bearable, driving long distances more of an adventure & dancing more personal. I am constantly on the hunt for new music & over the years have compiled quite the eclectic music library. I feel like different songs from different times in my life can bring back memories like nothing else. And they are like soundtracks to that time of my life. I hear "Love of a Lifetime" by Firehouse & I am suddenly in Mike's arms dancing our first dance as a married couple. I hear "Godspeed (Sweet Dreams)" by Dixie Chicks & I am back in our apartment holding Jaden in my arms & soothing him to sleep. I hear "In my Arms" by Plumb & I am in our first house swaddling Camren & watching Jaden drawing a work of art at the table. I hear "Just let me cry" by Hilary Weeks & I am reminded of the years & years of struggle with infertility. I hear "Sea of Love" by Cat Powers & I am in the back seat of the car just staring at little Makai's face as we drove her home from the hospital & realizing that many prayers had just been answered. I could go on & on. When I turn on my music, it somehow turns off the loud things of the world that I want to forget, even if just for the few minutes it's on. Music makes me laugh, cry, dance, pause, ponder & most importantly smile.